Destroy

I put deepest sincerity into saving your soul
Threw myself into saving your life.
And for a while, I recieved the same treatment
Yet now all I recieve is strife.

My trust, my love, my joy, my choice
Was never yours to mock; to scold and snigger.
I know you're jaded of me; I know you think I'm a fake
But your dismay makes the hole even bigger.

I'm just too tired to move along from you
After holding so much, you let me go on a wave.
Drowning;spiralling, going under, I will not resurface
Floating away to my grave.

This isn't me-I just can't make me real
But all the same, why do you feel the need to hate?
I know I'm selfish, conceited, searching for pity; you're used
But this ache is just so great.

And even after all the sinking I've been through
You never cease to make me feel so low.
I turn to you in my darkest hour of need
But you just make the hurt spread and grow.

It's an insight, it's another view I forgot
And it kills me inside to know that you don't care.
I thought that you would hold, you would hang on
That you'd always be there.

So screaming at me; telling me each beat is wasted
It opens my eyes....and makes them stream, uncontrolled.
You stand there, staring, laughing with such satisfaction
As I crumble, drop and fold.

You destroy me each day and I just can't comprehend
What have I done, I have tried to be golden for you.
Yet you insist on destroying me, you murderer
Destroyed all that I hold too.

So thank you, I guess, for telling me
For snatching the light and showing that I.
Am simply nothing, that I don't deserve air
That nobody cares and I might as well die.

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For L.C.G