Slip Away (Always and Forever)

I really am tired, I've had enough
Im so sick of this, life's way too rough
Im so sick stuck seeing the world this way
Im so sick and tired of feeling pissed off all day

I think its just about time for all of this to end
I've already breathed my last breath if I dont break this trend
If Im unable to change this, I've already lived my last day
I might as well be gone already if this cant slip away

This anger, pure hatred, persistent rage
I gotta get up and go out, go on a rampage
you know I cant kill it, gotta keep it inside
you know I cant spill it, things Im forced to hide

Im waiting for the rain to come and wash away this hate
I cant believe I want the sorrow, that it can come too late
theres no way out of this pain, I've just got time to bide
I dont think I can stay here but I have no place to hide

This jealousy, hopeless bitterness, comes from just one glance
her body language says so much, says I dont have a chance
What the hell can I do? Just sit around and wait?
What THE HELL am I supposed to do to defy my bloodstained fate?

My head hurts, my throat hurts, God it hurts to breathe
my heart hurts, my hopes hurt, God it hurts to be
my eyes sting, cant see a thing through this blurry mess
gotta die, no time to bide until I can fight this stress

Its so sad, so wrong, the tragedy of this unholy love
its impossible, cant be ignored, except by everything above
I cant take this ALWAYS AND FOREVER, when I cannot feel the bliss
the cyst I missed returns to my wrist, returns with the truth, I cant fix this

Only when I sleep and dream am I allowed a break
When I cannot feel a single thing I can forget being awake
and STILL this annoying, accursed optimist wont relent once throughout the day
he says that everything will be alright, even if only in dreams this SLIPS AWAY