Keep my strong façade.

"It's better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all." -Shakespeare
What a lie.
I would rather have never loved,
never had my walls come crashing down.
Sure you remember the feeling of love,
but it's mostly canceled out by pain.

Without love, you only feel loneliness.
When you lose it, you feel despair.
Anguish.
Everything that hurts.
Like picking at a scab, that's almost fully healed.
The wound reopens,
and you have to relive it.

Everyday, and every night.
So Shakespeare was a liar.
As was Disney, with his stupid
"And they all lived happily ever after"
Nice job building up my hopes,
even before I really knew what love was.

I wish I was still that innocent.
I hate the thoughts that race through my head.
They make me feel so weak.
But I have to keep my strong façade.
Sure everyone thinks I'm strong.
But they're so wrong.
I've just never given them the satisfaction of seeing me cry.