Spiral

It's amazing how it feels
Like none of this is real
It's just a little child's play
So lighten up and let me stay
Oh please stay cheerful dear
Speak not of darkness and fears
But tell me, where are we now
I came here but don't remember how
So listless and hateful
Confused and ungrateful
They call us disenchanted
I'm just really self inflicted
Disillusioned with myself
I wish I'd asked for help
But I know I've always hated
To stand and be berated
So I'll always refuse
To let this issue loose
And now I crash gently
As all this becomes me