Close My Eyes To Block My Lies

As I think of night
With pale light

My eyes close
My lies leave

My friends all trust me
I know I shouldn't

Suddenly
The night is cold and black

In minutes I find nothing
Beating heart of mine
Beating in my ear

Maybe my ear is in my heart
That the bleakness is mine
My fault
The darkness overwhelms
I can't make it stop

I scream and run
Hitting things as I go

My heartbeat no longer sounding in my ears
My eyes open to a night
The pale light not so pale

My skin tingles with the warmth
Of the original night
My own guilt broken
Undone

And I crawl to bed
To think of what I've done