For Alex.

I give up, I wrote those poems from anger, sad and frustration.
They werent supposed to have an explanation, Some stuff I say I never
meant, don’t you see, I still love you Alex,

I still care about you love you and everything,
I know it hurt you, when you read, but some stuff I never meant.

I give up I try and try, but sometimes my heart just wants to die.
I wish you’d understand,
That on first hand, I love you still I know you have her, and probably don’t care
But cant you find the time to spare, to see how life always isn’t fair.

Most people don’t see how I feel most of the time, people think im just a ray of sunshine.
When really, im dying inside, I smile everyday and wish the pain would go away.

But under the smile lives, a painful story that will haunt me. I still love you
You probably don’t see, but that’s ok cause I don’t want to be set free.

You tell me to consentrate on the other guy, but sometimes I just cant buy it, everyday
I still sigh, as my tears roll down my face, no one can ever take your place I still
Love you so much.

You have my heart still. Like you always will, time is standing still for me, cause I need you in my
Life but why cant you see?
You were the happiness in my life. Im sorry you read the poems and took it the serious way.
Alex I love you still to this day.