Ignore Me to Death

Ignoring things hurts, but at last I've gained-
an ability to accept them, now I'm just slightly insane
I never said that I'm just like Saint Nick
I know I'm just human, and I know when I'm tricked

I think I get it now, think I can live/die with myself
I'm tired and lonely, hope God can look at himself
and I hope you don't care, you can have my last breath
because I'm not scared, so just ignore me to death

A Bible is burning in Dracula's hands
And history's frozen in forgotten lands
What is God saying? I cant hear his demands
So what use is praying? I don't understand...

I don't care who I hurt, I don't care who gets f**ked
I won't care anymore, won't leave shit up to luck
I only care for myself, I wont try again once I failed-
I see good's overrated, the truth's been unveiled

I'm not afraid, just gotta see how I turn out,
whether I'm good or bad, what to scream or shout-
at the sky up to Heaven, or at the Earth down to Hell
I'm not afraid to keep going, I'm neither good nor unwell

I used to be frightened, both to live and to die
and I used to be hurt, but I couldn't cry
everything sucked, it always has and it will
I wanted to die, but I just couldn't be killed

I was stuck, caught in feelings I couldn't restrain-
understand, or ignore, I could never tame-
the beast that was me, then I saw reality
nothing should matter, just neutrality

I am who I am and I'm damned anyway
so no use in trying, in keeping my demons at bay
and no use in being bad unless it makes me happy
there's no use being sad...

That's my epiphany...