Do I Love You?

We have been friends.
Since the start of the year.
Since I’ve gotten to know you.
I think you’re very close.
You stare at me.
You’re different when it’s just you and me.
We talk about everything.
I wouldn’t go over to your house, because it’d seem awkward.
And I’d always thought you’ve never liked me.

When I’m upset you come to me.
When you’re away I miss you.
When I’m away, I miss you.
I miss you now.
You are my second crush this year.
The last crush I had was around April.
And up until Wednesday I’ve liked you.
I know it’s now that long, but I think I do like you.

You mean a lot to me.
I can trust you.
I come to you for advice, and you give it to me.
We joke around, but what really annoys me about you.
Is that you’d be mean to me.
Jayden told me it I’d never work out between us.
But how did he know?
I have never told you.
And I miss you know.
I was crying when I was walking home.
I tried not to eat anything, because I felt fat.

I know I am fat, but the thoughts made me fatter then I am.
My mum made me eat my dinner.
After that I wanted to chuck it all up.
I know that sounds gross.
But I feel you don’t like me because of my weight.
I don’t know if you feel like that.
But I don’t care if you’re shorter then me.
You live near me.
But you never see me?
Are you nervous or you just don’t want to come over?
My heart was pounding was the car was getting closer to your house on Wednesday.

I want to feel your kisses.
The touch of our hands when they crawl with each other.
The colour of your blue eyes.
I’m sorry if you felt wired when it was Brittany, you and I
She really wanted to come over, and it was bugging me.
People said you liked me, but I knew it wasn’t true.
Please, I want an answer from you.
I want to know if you like me too.
Please tell me.
Please oh god make him love me!