Control

Thoughts running a million miles,
Through my head, over and over again
Confusion hitting
Harder and faster each and every time

People trying to help
They don't understand,
I can, I need to control my own life
They can't help me
In this spiralling pit of confusion and panic

I can control it,
They just can't see it
By controlling my weight
I am controlling my life
As long as I'm controlling something in this confusing life of mine
I will survive it

Why am i in this bright white room?
I was doing so well controlling my life
Why did they put me in here?
Let me out,
Let me control my life again