If Ever

If ever I told you I didn't care,

I was lying.

If ever I impressed you,

I was trying.

If ever I pushed you away,

I was scared.

If ever I couldn't speak to you,

I was unprepared.

If ever I said goodbye,

I didn't want to.

If ever I said I didn't want you,

It's because I need you.

If ever you said "I love you",

And I didn't say it back.

It's because I needed time,

To pick up the slack.

If ever I had the chance,

I would tell you that I love you.

I would say you are my everything,

Because its only true.

To me it seems an hour,

With every heart stopping glance.

I would sincerely love you forever,

If ever I had the chance