Different Directions

I speak these lies everyday.
Soon even I will think they're true.

I fake these smiles everyday.
But they hurt too much to be real.

I'm being pulled in two different directions,
and I don't know which one's right.
Which one will shield me like a tower,
And which one wont put up a fight?

Even though it's all in my head,
I can feel everything come crashing down.
There's too much light to be able
to read between the lines.

There's no way to signify
Which way to go.
My heart is breaking more.

How much longer can I put up with this
aching in my chest?

I'm really thinking...
of how not to wake up tomorrow...
I just want to start falling.

Do what you will.
Say what you want.
Nothing can be worse than this.