As Good as Gone

I've got the facilities to stop it right now
But then I see I'll mess up again
So I don't even try and remember how
I couldn't tell the difference between now and then
Then I would try
Then I would strive
Then I could hope
Then I had dreams
Then I had faith
Then I would climb
Then I'd not look down
Now I'd rather flush
All my problems away
Now I'll ignore
Each massive delay
Now I deny
That it ever was there
Now I take
All the easy ways out
Today I flushed
All my problems away
Together all down
In one swirling stinging bitterly burning
Mass of deceit