Am I lieing?

I just fell down the stairs
Its funny though
because I can picture myself doing it too
a little trip and then the bruises
but thats wrong
I lied
I'm not even sure why
was it for atention
maybe I wanted people to feel sorry for me
but I didn't want it
not in the end
I felt so guilty
feel so guilty
I wanted something else but
I don't know what that was
I said it was a mistake
it wasn't
Only I saw what they were
what they are
Only I know
that I can fit my fingers over each one
Only I know that my fist
fits the dark circles on my side
I said it was an accident
but I saw my eyes in the mirror
look at this
this is what was done to my body
This is what I did
it was me

I'm sorry?