Why must he do this?

He smiles at me
I smile back
for a split second I'm im paradise
then his gaze roams and does not look back
Why does he make me feel this way?
Sometimes I wanna lay down and cry becausethat string is gonna snap and when it does, I'll die too
He blushes when I say his name
but then he never utters mine
he opens up and tells me his fears, his wants, his feelings, and sadness beyond words
When I comfort him, he doesn't return the favor or tell me that I made him feel better
He gives me all the right signs, the words, the looks, the occasional touch, but when I try to hold his hand
He turns and acts like it's a burn
It tears me up inside and makes me wanna die, but I love him so much
and one day our time will come and we'll be together till the end
My life
My darling
My Aaron and I