Downhill

And I find myself back at the beginning
My efforts turned in to wishing
My means turned less caring
It feels better this way
Afterwards it'll be okay
So long as I'm careful don't tell
Or embarrassment will fill this hell
Then more problems will come as well
Forget the harm its doing
And relish the worry I'm losing
If it's private no one knows
They'll not notice even though
I'll continue 'till it shows
Because everything I'll hide
Under a simple guise
Do it don't regret
It's really not a threat
Courteously forget