shadow games

sitting so quietly in a fairly lit room
i wonder in my mind of things to do
as my thoughts wonder,and i begin to think
i find my self in a dark corner in my mind
a place i onced lived in for so long
i start with a thought of a lost love
that ends up with a lost life
Living from day to day
with no thoughts of the future in my head
as the thoughts swirl in my mind
i can't help but to curl up and cry
in life i have lost so much
i have been played,hurt,battered,and beaten
i have been stabbed,shanked,and assasinated
my emotions have been played with like a deck of cards
the game is getting so old the cards become torn and black
inside my darkened heart i know that one day my love will come
i drift out of the shadows and gather the cards
i'm waiting for the game to begin
only this time all the cards are in my hand
this time i'll win
with the cards of darkened death in my hand
the other players drop like flies
as the table is now clear
i wait in the shadows with a grin for the game to begin