Addiction

I know, as sure as certain that I’m doing wrong,
The acts I commit every time I escape,
Depressing it all to numb seduction
Light headed and starry eyed
I’m what I swore couldn’t exist,
I let him break me,
I see his face, hear is condescending words
In every drop of the bottle I empty,
Innocence can’t be earned
I gave it all away on a whim,
Wishing for something no one should ever want,
He ran far away with my good sense,
Now I chase the pills with thoughts of longing,
His scent, overwhelming and controlling always consumes me
Right before I fall to the heaviness arms of sedated concrete darkness