I fell in love

Through the doors
I closed
you walk
not bothering to knock.
My protection down.
The walls I built to hide the pain,
you found the way,
through the dark corners
were I keep crying,
out for help.
Everyday I keep on trying
to push you away,
from my bleeding heart.
Were my dark secrets throb,
waiting to be released of this ache.
I’m scared.
Your promises are fairy tales.
To good to be true.
My tears are creating a flood.
washing away,
the guilt.
Developed by my fears,
raised by lies.
I know the pain,
So I don’t care,
that I will be the one to get hurt.
I’m used
to the sound of my pleading screams.
I dance
on the rhythm of your
soothing words.
enabling me to hate,
the way
you comfort me.
You reach for my pain soaked soul
cradling it in your arms carefully.
Don’t let me fall,
I already am
broken
hearts, and useless dreams
that never will come true,
I used to believe
in
love
the thing of which you speak.
Pity me
because I’m to weak.
I let you in.
Be my saviour.
Fight away my fears,
I’m too scarred
to believe
the things you said,
I can’t change the fact that
I need you.
Will you be the murderer of my still beating heart?
Will you be the stitches that keep me from falling,
a part
of me realizes that
I’m a fool, I've grown too soft.
I broke the most important rule,
I think
I fell in love…