my most hated loved ones

Dear Mama,

I love you the way a child is obligated to love their mother. You never really were there for me like you were for the other. Mama I don't want your pity or tears. They wouldn't be for me, they would just be conformation of your darkest fears. This is goodbye for ever and always. My spirit will haunt you for the rest of your days.

Dear Dad,

What can I say? Do you care that my life ended this way? That I took your revolver and blew out my brains. As my body falls to the floor fragments of skull and blood rains. Your gun finished the job you'd try to accomplish a time or two. Daddy dearest, FUCK YOU!

To my friends,

I love you guys with every inch of my black little heat. Your the ones who played my mom and dads part. If there is some way, please don't mourn forever. Just promise my memory that you'll be there for each other. When I die, dance at my funeral like there's no tomorrow. Never of you had better follow.

To whom it may concern,

My life was pretty fuckin' shitty. But please spare me your pity. I lived for as long as I could. Please make sure my coffin is made of premium wood. When you die I'll be looking up from down below. The clouds will go black and that's how you'll know.