Dissapointment

I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to say.
I know if I don't lie,
You won't get throught the day.

I don't want to dissapoint you
But I can't change who I am.
So what if I'm a lesbian?
I'm still your little lamb.

You told me to be strong.
You told me to be brave.
I wish that you'd just listen,
Not send me to my grave.

Don't you think I'm scared?
Don't you think I'm afraid?
I can't take things back,
This is the life I made.

You scare me sometimes,
Like when you say gays go to hell.
If you don't know why that scary,
Then you don't know me very well.

Why is it so hard for you
To love me if I'm gay.
What can I do to make you love me?
What on earth can I say?