Identity

I don't know who i am
that's why i hide in your shadows
take on the appearance of someone I'm not
just to be someone who matters
i look back at myself now
and wonder
who would i be right now
if i knew who i was before
identity is a hard word to live up to
and when you accept influences you quickly lose yourself
and when your in so deep you can't get out
where do you turn
who do you look to for help
how can you confide in others
when you can't even find yourself
I've faced this crisis to many times before
and each time i thought i was living up to myself
i was learning to be you even more
i would accept this and move on
but
what about later when your gone
who will i be then
a copy of you
a clone made to live up to you but in someplace new
or will i become a carbon copy of someone else
do you know how it feels to be someone your not everyday
you believe that this is you when inside it's not
i looked up to you because you were someone i wasn't
so happy,out-going, so secure
how can i live up to that
I've tried so hard it's almost evident
but now that I've lost myself in you
i can't be recovered
identity:the condition of being oneself or itself :not another