Cliff's Bitter Edge

run to the the edge
then they attack
i'm too proud
to beg to come back
i used your axe
caused the multitudes'
hatred at my back
pushing me forward
off the edge

everything everyone
all crying for me to jump
my own social defeat
no wonder shoulders slump

when it comes down to it
i'm so afraid
so i resist
then the slip and fall
dashed to rocks far below
but then there's paradise- or hell
all this i missed
all because of cowardice

since i left
who'd miss me if i leapt
it was her, always her
my heart she kept
here, pick up the pieces again
they're yours always have been
will be forever and now and then

interesting
this hatred broken heart can bring
i watch my life on blackened screen
curious detachment to everything i'm seeing
that person, that beast, that thing
is that really me
when did i stop clowning
and start frowning
why did i kill my one who cared?
why did i cut her coldly
when her tender heart she bared?
when did i turn into this horrible me?
why not til now couldn't i see?

i stand here no longer crying
i'm no longer afraid of the edge
i deserve a thousand times
the pain of falling from this ledge
the multitudes offer no forgiveness
but i never asked for this
is there anything else