Crushed by a Crush

We should hate each other.
I'm the person you dispise.
But the attraction to you is immense.
I can't stop myself.
From stalking your messages.
To writing it out.
You could be my father, your age I don't know.
You could be a liar, no that isn't right.
Your band, your friends.
I hate em' all.
They hate me.
Is it terrible I am scared?
To start a friendship?
You wouldn't hold it against me?
But I feel I can not say.
Play me a show.
Sing to me all night long.
Strum a song.
It bubbles in my heart.
I shouldn't feel this.
I got another, one at home.
But I'm your biggest fan.
If you could just talk to me once, mean every word.
I can over look our differences.
I can take on the world.
You mean a lot, friend or not.
Join me?
I'd never push, I'd never threat.
My confession I regret.
I am your biggest fan.
This is to you.
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