Feeling It Break

And now it's over.
Heartbreak didn't hurt like they said it would.
Maybe i'm not meant to feel.
Wasn't that why you went in the first place?
But I have to ask.
Was I really in love?
Did I really need him like I thought I did?
Maybe.
Maybe i'm just in love with the idea of love.
In love with the idea of me being in love.
Of me being able to love.
Because I know I'm not capable.
I still don't know if it's possible.
I I really was in love.
Surely it would hurt more.
I should know the feeling oh heartbreak.
Then again.
You can't kill what's already dead.