My Secret Rules Me

I’m stuck in the middle
Of the lie and the truth
Afraid to keep hiding
But afraid to let loose
No one understand the pain I endure
But I’m to scared to let them in
For them to be sure.

I’m stuck in the middle
Of a sin and the light
Afraid to keep sinning
But to scared to go right
For I am afraid
Of what they might think
When they find out their angel
Is just make-believe

I’m stuck in the middle
Of what I feel and my life
Afraid to keep hurting
But to scared to loose what’s mine
They will leave or judge
That I know
And I don’t need loneliness
Or a judge cuz I know
What I did is a sin and a death written note.

I’m stuck in the middle
Of what could have and what’s now
Afraid to live my life
But to scared to change it now
For if I tell the truth
Nothing would be the same
So I’ll live my outstretched lie
And wear my tangled web

I’m stuck in the middle
Of my heart and my tears
Afraid to loose the ones I love
But to scared to shed my fears
They will surely leave
That I trust in them
Because I’m a sinful follower
Who is to scared to turn back now
I’m stuck in the middle
Of what’s right and was wrong
Afraid to keep it hidden
To to ashamed to let it out
I’ve tried to change my ways
But its hard to leave your life
So I hope someday
I’ll have enough strength to get it right

I’m stuck in the middle
Of there hurt and there love
Afraid to let them know
To scared to let them love
For if they truly know they will be hurt I couldn’t trust
But for now I’ll take their love
As they falsely trust me so
Because I have a secret they shall never know