Life

Life
Brings both pain and joy
Some are lucky
Some aren't
I feel as if I'm
The one with the life that involves pain
I'm falling apart
The only strings that are keeping me up
Are those of my friends and my boyfriend
No strings from my family
My family is one of the biggest pains I'm feeling
And I don't know why
But it feels
Like I'm losing my grip on those strings
Or am I losening my grip by myself
Am I creating my own pain?
Am I ceating my very own death?
Am I to blame for my own pain?
If so how do I make it stop?
I just want it to stop
Will this pain ever stop?
My head is full of these questions
And not knowing the answers
Well that quite frankly
Scares me to death
I want my questions answered
I hate the fact that I'm scared
And the fact that I'm worried shitless
And quite frankly I'm starting to think
Is life even worth living for
The only reason I keep living
Are for those people at the end of the strings that are holding me up
But how long will they be able to hold me?
I truthly like to say i hate my life =[