That's All She Wrote.

you keep leaving
And waiting for answers
Is becoming unbearable.
I'm sitting here,
I feel like crap.
I think I'm going to cry.

You sit there
Finally coming back with
Simple one word
'Why?'

I muster up some courage
Only for it to be forgotten.
'Nevermind.'
I feel the tears
At the corner of my eyes
I don't let them spill.
'It doesn't matter.'
It never has, right?

I wait for a few minutes
I exit the window
Just before it blinks up again.
'It does matter.'
That's all it says
That's all you write.

Somehow I know the perfect words
I know just what to say
How to say it.
'I'm the one who cares,
no one else seems to notice.'
In my gut, I could tell.
They were all blind
To vain and shallow.
Too hurt by themselves
To see past their own problems
To see mine.
It's not like it matters
It never has, right?

You just had to say it
You just had to keep going
'I care.'
Followed shortly with an
'I love you.'

I can't stand the feeling
Where you know it's a lie.
Or at least that's all you
Can think.
That's all I can tell my self.
I couldn't say as much though
My exact words being:
'Funny thing is people say that.
Then they leave.'

You ask why I'm acting up.
Acting up, huh?
Thanks.
So much for caring.

I blame it on the pills
and add an 'lol'
It makes everything better.
Well, as far as you can tell.

You've never been the deepest,
But seriously?
Oh come on.

I walked away
Still fighting back tears
Mumbling incoherent things
And "That's all she wrote."