Early Morning Confessions

3:22 AM,
can't sleep,
when head meets pillow..
all that comes is more thoughts,
mainly consumed by her.

3:24 AM,
sinful in so many ways,
my disloyality to my questionably trusting boyfriend,
my blooming homosexuality,
my deadly dominoe effect;
love for her = strong desire to be close = loneliness for those around me increased = the well threatened suicide.

3:27 AM,
sick pleasures flood my mind,
images of her tender body,
replacing my hands with hers,
if only it were real.