Playing the violin

Can someone take away this pain?
Curse it into oblivion
Remove it from my head,
My mind, my soul

All my life someone
Has been there
Telling me what to do
Now I have the void
Under my painful heart

The tears that cascade
Down my pained face
Cannot be fixed or stopped
I’m broken forever more

I’m not playing the violin
I’m speaking my mind
No one wants
To see the ugliness inside

My life isn’t easy
But everyone thinks theirs is worse
The pain breaks into my soul.
Piercing me.

I need help
But I’m scared
I’ve never asked before
Am I weak or strong?

Black on white.
My solitude and safety
No one alone
They don’t want to see me