dear me

Dear Me

im sorry for everything ive put you through.
scars and bruises. cuts and scratches.
im sorry that i dont love you.
everything and anything, i cant appreciate.
im sorry that i dont treat you right.
im sorry i abuse you.
i take the knife to my wrist day after day
time after time.
im ever so sorry that i cut you up
but its the only way i know how to deal,
deal with not being good enough.
deal with being alone
im sorry that i bruise myself
but i feel that i deserve it
im sorry that i got you sent away to the hospital twice
because i dont know how to cope
im sorry that i dont think before i act
but even i wasnt impulsive
i would still take the knife to my wrist
im sorry for everything ive put you through
scars and bruises. cuts and scratches.

all my hate,
ali