A neglected childs prayer

I wish to feel something other than pain
I was born in a family drugs and rage
This life,I cannot hold any longer
taking away my own life
would be my great escape.

Just another neglected child
bleeding in the corner
waiting to be beaten,bruised and stabbed again.

God,
if there is a God,
please lift me up to heaven
and take me away from this misery.
Why?
Why did you make me suffer?
Why do you let me cry?
Where is my guardian angel when I need him?.

I'm cradled by the hands of death each day
but death never puts me to sleep for all eternity.
Instead it wraps me around pains long silver dress
and it chokes me slowly
laughing at my foolish crys.