Europa

I can barely see what I'm writing
the light is off, it hurts my head
I'm out of it but won't sleep one bit
and won't till this is said:

I have no New Year's resolution
no goals, no wants, no fears
It's who I am, there's no solution
I've got my hands full here

My dreams of seeing Jupiter-
pale when I compare-
her Red Spot to her red lips
I've got more things to swear:

Yeah, I know it's corny
and a little too cliche'
but admitting it helps me survive
I love you, okay?

Ha, it never was just "I wanna fuck"
you know I already lost my luck
and I'm still here, can't say it sucks
I have no fears, no guns to duck

'Cuz I'm a puppet, I'm a moon
my heart will be her air balloon
she'll make it sink or make it fly
she'll make it beat or let it die

This slavery somehow feels free
letting her have complete control
I tried to fight and failed miserably
so, fuck it, just forsake my soul

And she'll get me to do anything
I'm whatever she needs me to be
I'll be right there if she wants me
and if she wants me gone, she's free

And I'll run away to Jupiter
and her ammonia crystal clouds
I missed you in my dreams, darling
but I'll miss her more in Earth's crowds

'Cuz my heart is still aching
it still longs for gravity
nurse my pain please, Jupiter
and never set me free

And now I cannot sleep at night
Well, how the hell'd I ever fight-
Not bow to her uncanny might?
Ha, wow... dunno if I'm alright

So, Jupiter, you'll replace her-
and I'll be a moon once more
sweet Jupiter, don't let me go
please freeze my heart so sore

I can't keep from wondering, to her, which moon was I?
I know I wasn't Ganymede, too large to just let die
maybe I was Callisto, the furthest from her heart
or Europa... or Io, just too small in the dark

Ha, I was probably Amalthea, even she didn't know I exist
yeah, thats me, the outcast... I know that I'm not missed
who the hell am I kidding? I wasn't even on the list-
of moons... oh well, so be it, I'm done with being pissed

Thanks for the asylum, Jupiter, thanks for it all
the room in your orbit, not letting me stand tall-
in a universe of pygmies, now I'll watch the cosmos fall
maybe, one day, you'll let me go... if I ever hear her call...