This Ones for you Mom !

its over and done
she has finally won
the little game shes played
since i was very young
she tells me she loves me
and how much she cares
but then she freaks out
and everyone stares
but of course not at her
th "perfect mom"
i was always just
the screw up
who did everything wrong
in her eyes and most of everyone elses
i was the ungreatful child
the one who
"never cared"
about anyone else
but her self
but the truth is
its the other way around
yet shes found the perfect way
to twist and turn
my life
completly upsidedown
shes keeping me from the one
that i love
my reason for living
but now that were separated
i really dont feel like giving
any effort at life
whatsoever
when im away from him
my heart feels as if
its bleeding
and its like every moment
without him
is sucking more and more
out of my pitiful life
and everyone else just gives me
the same advice
"you just have to wait a little longer,
what doesnt kill you will make you stonger"
im sick of having to wait
"just a little bit longer"
thats it
that "just a little bit longer"
has split
its gone
and so am i
as i watch you at my funeral
i see you begin to cry
i think to myself
"maybe she realized, she had done wrong...."
i think again and say
"fuck her, shes glad im gone."