acceptance is the first step to recovery

I look at the world around me, and all I feel is pain;
My innocence torn from me, I've never been the same.
So many times I've tried to overcome my fears,
But every time I do, I just end up in tears.
Please tell me how it feels when two become one.
It's something I'll never know; my heart has grown too numb.
Everybody tells me that someday I'll have my turn,
But I don't think my heart will ever get that for which
it yearns.
I'm tired of always dreaming- hoping for the best,
My world is crashing down around me, and all I want to
do is rest.
Too long have I been fighting for a world that doesn't exist.
A world that will never be, no matter how hard I insist.
My life is not a fairy tale, that's not how it will end,
I'll probably die alone and cold, with cats for my only friends.
Too many stars have I wished upon, to many birthday
candles have I blown out,
I guess I'm just not meant to find what love is all about.