Living a Lie

I have never been
Who I want to be
I've only ever acted
As somebody other than me

People think I'm honest
And truth be told I am
Except for one white lie
Of which I'm not a fan

I try my hardest to be
The girl I wish I was
But when I try I fall and fail
I'm certain this is because

I'm not outgoing
I'm merely shy
I can be emotional
I've been known to cry

I am not beautiful
I'm hardly pretty
I am quite dumb
Not very witty

Whenever I try
It's the first step towards failure
I will always ruin
The perfect picture

Why can't I
Just be me?
Why am I
Creating the person I'd like to see?

Everyone I want to be
Always turns out wrong
I wish I was this
But these people dont stay round long

So why am I trying?
Why do I care?
About the size of my brain
Or the legnth of my hair?

Why does it matter
Who exactly I am?
Nobody can be perfect
Nobody ever can

So I'll just live this lie
And try to be me
Just sit in a corner
Let my mind wander free