Im not afraid

You ask me if i'm afraid to die,
You dont know that I did try.
But the answer is no,
And you stare at me like you dont know.
Well I have tried to kill myself in the past,
Knowing that my life would not last.
The pain i feel you will never feel,
Do you know that i have cuts on my heel.
I hate my life,
You always said that i will never survive.
I hope you know that I sometimes want to die,
I'll still see the birds in the sky.
If someone ever put a gun to my head,
I would say go ahead put me in my bed.
If I got hurt badly I would tell the doctors to let me die.