I blame sarcasm

I screamed today,
As I tend to do.
I cried again,
And you never knew.

I hate the way you see me now,
And how you tell them all,
How me, that girl, is awful,
Like you've never felt this small.

I'll live on, though I'd rather not,
And act as I hate you too.
But in a realistic sense,
I'm completely in love with you.

I know, I know,
how stupid I sound,
I do this way to much.

I know, I know,
I'll shut up now,
and try not to crave your touch.

I blame sarcasm for this thing,
the fact I love you so,
I over used it's evil ways,
but I'm rather sure you know.

You're laughing at me, Aren't you now?
You think this some new game.

I hate this new predicament,
Though I sensed this before it came.

Don't worry I won't ruin you,
by telling all your 'friends'
Instead I'll keep my Head
and pray this torture ends.