I hate you and I don't know what to say to you anymore

I know you didn't mean it
you never do
but it hurts and now I can never trust you
like i used to before

I know you were drunk though that shouldn't be suprising
you forgot who I was but that's not to blame
But when you pointed that at me it just ruined it
it ruined the fact that I love you but now I'm afraid

I won't be the same
but this isn't a game
I can't restart and go over again

When I came and saw you had it pointed at your head after I had left you
I freaked and knew you weren't yourself

though I dont see how I can know who you are at all anymore
your always drunk
it makes no sense
I don't care anymore
just don't you ever point that gun at me ever again.