Faking does no good anymore

so I'll put on a fake smile
and go through my day
but this isn't what life is meant to be

all the fake smiles
and strained laughs
are for what?

so people won't kick your ass
say your a freak
and tell you to die
tell you that hey you could never get a guy

but it appears to me that I've done everything wrong
even through the fake smiles I've done it wrong
so what's the point?
so I can seem normal to all of these pricks?
so they have no reason to talk about me?

well to that I say fuck it all.
let them talk
let me fall
in the end the losers always win

so I'll pick up this paper or in this case mouse
and write everything I think about
I don't what them to read it
because then they would see
what they really mean to me
and how much i care about what they say

because frankly i don't
I could give less of a damn
what really matters after what he did?
that gun pointed at me changed my entire mind

I will not care what they say
I will not care who I date
I will not care about anyone as much as I did before
because in the end we all just hit the floor