Bad to Worse

What was bad, now the worst
Going mad, about to burst
Not seeing stars, just a dull grey
Watching cars go by, I wish one would stay

I’m here, just go away
You don’t care about what I have to say
I’ll say sorry the day I admit I should handle things a different way
Another delay in the system of me, I know it's not okay

Desire to quit, but I’m stuck
That’s about it, I’ve run out of luck
Can’t get it back, so thrown off-track
Stack the regrets, heart turning black

Turning into the wreck I’ve tried to avoid
Burning in the same flame that had my trust destroyed
Yearning to be the person, who once enjoyed
The feel of life, before it turned void

I write in spite of the fact I’m getting nowhere
Fighting for right over wrong, don’t want to be here
No escape, no way to get out
Watch the words shape on their lips, don’t know what about

Biting my tongue in anticipation for the worse
Forgetting my lungs’ desperation to converse
To convince them I’m among the ones that are fine
The lies once stung but the assumptions are now easy to decline

They now think I’m fine when I’m not
The life I call mine, well, it’s a lot
Falling behind, so lost in thought
Trying to remind myself that I gave my best shot