This Hole

There's this hole in my chest,
In my heart
I don't know where it came from
Or what caused it
But all I know
Is that I have to fix it

When I'm alone at night
It seems to grow more and more
I can't seem to find any
Music, poems, books, drawings-
Nothing-to help fill this hole

With this hole I feel no emotions
I'm alike with a zombie
Just walking around
With all my senses dulled
To a point where
I don't know if I'm awake

Has anyone else had this hole
Because it seems like I'm the only one
I can't explain it to my friends
Nor my family
They wouldn't understand
They wouldn't take me seriously

In a way I feel like this hole
Can be filled
By someone that I know
But he's distant from me
It feels like I
Don't even know him anymore
It scares me

With this hole
I can't seems to make sense of
What I'm writing
I haven't been able to write a decent poems
In decades, it seems

I just wish
There was a way
To fill this hole

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