Him

The tears,
and screaming.
I can only run.
It's all I know.

The music never turns off.
I keep dancing, banging my head,
hoping to get out every other thought.
It never works.
I want it to work.

Why the fuck wont it work?
Why can't I smile anymore?
The only time death doesn't cross my mind....
Him.
I talk to him, almost every thing else goes away.
But he's not always there.
He can't always be there.

I need to depend on myself,
but it's good to have someone by my side sometimes...