You Told Yourself. You Lied.

Look at the clock, how time ticks away.
You told yourself you'd die today.

When you were two,
Mommy's little princess.
Spoiled, wretched, sweet to adults.
You told yourself you'd die today.

When you were five,
Daddy's little girl.
Tomboyish, foul-smelling, tsk-ed at by neghbors.
You told yourself you'd die today.

When you were seven,
The smartest in your grade.
Teachers pet, the envy and laugh of the class.
You told yourself you'd die today.

When you were ten,
Most popular child.
All the right clothing, the prettiest eyes adn voice.
You told yourself you'd die today.

When you were twelve,
The rumors started.
You were a slut, a prep, a stoner.
You told yourself you'd die today.

When you were fourteen,
You cursed the day.
You look at the clock,
Time ticks away.

You fell through on the promise.
Much like the wind.
You didn't make any effort to die today.