Madness Soons Settles In

This feeling that lurks deep inside,
Is something that’s been there for so long,
My temptations can no longer be denied,
This has always been something lifelong,
The feeling of misery and pain,
Is no longer a thought,
It has deepened in my brain,
This feeling is now distraught,
I have given up every inch of me,
To try to be happy,
The thought of a killing spree,
Does not make me the least unhappy,
Trying to deal with the pain I have known to long,
Is coming to the surface,
I know clearly there is something wrong,
My memories are hard to erase,
A fucked up childhood,
A broken heart,
I have always been so misunderstood,
I want to tear myself apart,
I seem to only live for my idols,
And the materials possessions I own,
But those things are so idle,
They cannot show my feelings of the unknown,
I know where I’ve been,
But I don’t know where I’m going,
The memories will always be hidden within,
My anger is still growing,
I cannot tell what will happen tomorrow,
But I can tell you this,
All the things I have come to know,
Have fueled the insanity that still exists.