Being Selfish

I wouldn’t want to blame it on something
Not booze or drugs or food
Just down right emotions
Where the way you smell act just being
Is enough for me to kiss you

Why is it that I can’t seem to try
To reach out with who I am to you
Even though you are there tempting me
Bickering and bantering back and forth
Like the days when we first met

Words empty to anyone but us
Shared feelings experiences
That haunted us
Long before you left I felt this way
And here you are again

After all the thoughts and faults
For letting you go
Slippery links that lost their hold
From sprig to spigot
I am just selfish that way

Two days left and I won’t see you
Can’t see you if I am to say goodbye again
Move on with a scattered friendship intact
For how many more years
Until you die on your battlefield

Supported by artificial rage and anger
Sullied by military might and courage
Guns held in hand not stopping for anyone
Does it matter that you’re not like me
Separated by carnal needs

Or again am I being selfish?