Praying

I want to die,
I want to cry,
to feel closer to you.
Every inch of my body
is held down in agony,
and the weight of gravity
brings me closer to you.
When will I see you?
When can I be you?
Let me in,
keep me safe.
I'm praying to God,
I'm praying he's real,
I'm praying for hope,
another chance at the wheel.
I know I've done wrong,
but I'm not willing to bite my tongue.
No,
not again.
I'm not a compromise,
I'm willing to break those ties
with her,
with her.
So I'm praying to you,
I'm praying your real,
I'm praying for hope,
another chance at the wheel.
I'm lost
in a town i've lived my whole life,
where everyone knows a name
that's not mine.
I know how my history repeats,
and it's still a surprise.
Bite me,
to feel if I'm real.
No, I think not,
I mean, are you real?
I don't know.
I'm just praying to me,
I'm praying I'm real,
I'm praying for hope,
another chance at the wheel.