Life Only Goes On

I still walk around.
I'm feeling quite lost.
I sold my own sanity,
but for a lost cause.
Spiders and bugs,
dance in my head.
Berries of blue,
Cherries of red.
Hopscotch and memories,
of things that are past.
I learned long ago,
the good things don't last.
Pain and blood,
and wanting death's kiss.
Coming so close,
but, alas!, a miss.
Heart pumping fastly,
new love's first kiss.
Alone in a bedroom,
a moment of bliss.
Holding your hand,
watching you cry.
Hurting so badly,
wanting to die.
Tuxes and dresses,
dates to the prom.
Growing old and
hating the young.
Another near miss
of dying alone.
Fights in a bar,
long walks home.
Weddings for love,
funerals for death,
every new life,
is granted a breath.
Going to school,
hating my job.
Time passing slowly,
hiding a sob.
Life moves so quickly,
and I try to run.
But I finally realized,
Life only goes on.