Pain Pt.1

Growing up was hard
Day and day I was in pain
Wondering if I would ever see tomorrow again
I just wanted to fade away when I was just a baby
Things and things got harder
My mom told me if I was in trouble to call her
I wanted my father, but he was gone never to return home
I felt so alone I wanted to at least talk to him on the phone
But instead he said “So long”
Now I just live with my mother and brother about to have another
When I tell my mom I love her
All she says is “Whatever thinking I was being clever
All I says is “Never”
I always think about suicide wondering how it would be to die
When I walk outside no one says “ Hi ”
I can never believe my eyes how rude people can be to me
At church I get on my knees and pray to God to help my mom
believe in me
My mom thinks I’m a lie and shouldn’t be alive
I’m here for a reason
It’s not to deal with pain, but to live my life as a game
I wanna be a nurse to help those who are hurt but I get treated like dirt
I have good education but we’re so poor that I started a foundation
It helped me go to college to get more knowledge
It’s not easy but I did it for me because I believe I can do it
The teachers weren’t as mean as they seemed
They helped me achieve my dream
I’m grown up now with a son named Hakeem
I know I was born to go through pain but deal with it
I did something with my life
My smart beautiful son was five when I died
I died not in pain but with pride that I stayed alive