My dear scarlet

My tears want to fall,
but i wolnt let them,
not here when you can see me,
so i go home leave this place behind,
so i can cry,
alone in the darkness i lay with scarlet in one hand,
i talk to scarlet and cry,
scarlet takes away the pain with another pain,
a better pain the only pain we control together,
just me and scarlet's pain,
our little secret,
scarlet slides over my wrist one more time,
as my last tear falls i feel better,
how long will this go on,
how long will i need my scarlet to make me feel this way,
my dear scarlet still lays in my hand,
i drift off to a place that is my own,
my dear scarlet helped my pain go away,
my dear scarlet has killed me,
i love my dear scarlet.