Sinking

I feel like everything is slipping away
Or like it's been gone all along,
And I am just now realizing
That I never had what I thought I did.
And I don't know how to live without it.
This feeling...
It's like being tossed into dark water,
When you don't know how to swim.
Suffocating.
Frightened.
Confused.
I just want some air,
But I'm sinking farther and farther
What do you do,
When your whole world comes crashing down on you?
And when you finally look for the help
That you've been too proud to ask for,
Nobody is there?
Now I'm slipping farther and farther
Into this black hole.
I realize now that none of it matters,
When all we are is ticking clocks from the start.